long day.....

I spent the better part of today in A&E with a loved one. They fell down the stairs and couldnt walk so we went to the hopsital. Anyway i determined i am a worry wart in the 6hours I spent in that hospital! I wish I could cushionb a nd protect evryone that i love from harm! when something bad happens to them im always thinking 'what could I have done to stop this, this is my fault!' its so illogical but thats me....its a bit better ow but nonetheless, there I was in the A&E feeling really scared about this sitation with the ankles and knees of my loved ones, compounded with their other health problems......

I always try and rember what Jesus said about worrying, about how God clothes the flowers and he feeds the birds everyday....so why cant He have my back. Its about trusting in God. So thats what Im always thinking of, faith, hope and trust. what do they mean? and how can i achieve that state of mind? To know that He has my back no matter what, and to relinquish some of that control. why sit around worrying about things that I cannot change?

Anyway, Im back home...feeling knackered but good. I spent all day thinking about that Kirk franklin song where he says that every time a wound heals somehthing comes to take that healing away. Pity party 2010....lol! Well I got some KFC and tried to snap out of it.....I got a berakthrough today, I have a place to live. So thank goodness for that! I was really scared to be homeless on the streets of Jozi but its all worked out in the most unanticipated manner. God takes care of his children.

ok now Melrose Place is on...gotta check out the fashion

I'll holler!